Damnit all

If I had just STOPPED working in the landscape business like I wanted to back in 1998 I most likely wouldn't have this throat cancer. Physicians say it was most likely caused by continued exposure to chemicals, gasoline fumes, and pesticides and solvents. Nonetheless, I have it now, it's progressively getting worse, and I'm just already tired of all of it. If I have to have radiation to my throat I will have to have a feeding tube for 3 months or more, loose most of my voice, hair and energy. Sometimes I think it's just not worth it, but I keep plugging along. Why couldn't someone ELSE have gotten this, like a prisoner, Britney Spears or Lindsay Lohan. I met with a barrage of different pre op folks yesterday, anasthesia folks, doctors, nurses, oncologists, and on and on....it's all on for Tuesday March 11th 12 noon, HELL YES! Bring it on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Bring on the IV, the surgery & the radiation and hey, throw me in some Chemo too!